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If You Only Knew - Ft Dekay- Prod Cool And Dre - (Mastered)

from SO UNDERRATED - RUKAS & DEKAY - (2013) by Rukas

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This track is about suicide. Sorry...but it is. there's just no nice way to say it.
Rukas 2013

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IF YOU ONLY KNEW

THE FIRST BLEEDING - (Rukas)

ALL THIS STRIFE IN MY LIFE IT’S LIKE PRISON, TIRED OF LIVING
THE FIRE ISN’T INSIDE ITS MISSING WILL I DECIDE TO GIVE IN
HIRED WISDOM, A PSYCHIATRIST THAT DIDN’T TRY TO LISTEN
QUITE RESISTANT, BY ADMISSION
FORGOTTEN BY THE SYSTEM, OTHER GUYS HAVE IT NICE A RICH AND
FULFILLING LIFE OF BLISS AND
A NICE CAR THEY CAN DRIVE THE KIDS IN HOUSES THE SIZE OF BRISBANE
FIVE AT RICHMOND, WIFE IN THE KITCHEN
LIFE’S A BITCH AND I'M THE GUY THAT SITS IN
PIGSTIES AT BRIXTON, KNIFE IN THE KITCHEN
MIGHT TRY SUICIDE BUT A CHRISTIAN
WITH BELIEFS BUT I, MIGHT DECIDE TO DITCH’EM
SACRIFICE MY RELIGION, BAPTISED AT SIX AND
FOR WHAT? PARADISE IS A VISION
THE SKIES MIST AND AS I STAND GOOD THIS KNIFE FITS IN
MY HAND LOOK TEARS IN MY EYES GLISTEN

“THE CRY FOR HELP”

WHAT DO I DO?
ARE YOU LONELY TOO?
TELL ME WHAT I DO
IF YOU ONLY KNEW

THE SECOND BLEEDING - (DEKAY)

I DON’T EVEN GIVE A FUCK NO MORE
I DRINK SO MUCH I CANT EVEN GET DRUNK NO MORE
MY DOCTORS DUMB THINKING PRESCRIPTION DRUGS WILL CURE
THE DEMONS IN MY BRAIN IM LAUGHING AT THAT CUNT FOR SURE
SOME SAY DEKAY THAT GIRLS A TRAMP MAN
RESIDES AT CAMDEN CIDER IN A CAN AND
MY GRANDDAD DRANK A LOT CANCER CAME UNPLANNED AND
NOW HE JAMS WITH MICHAEL JACKSON AND MY GRAN AND
ALLOW THIS CIGARETTE I LET IT DROP
TO THE FLOOR WHERE IT BURNS A HOLE IN MY FUCKING SOCK
AND IF I HAD THE P I SWEAR DOWN I TUCK A GLOCK
INSIDE MY POCKET GO TO THE BUS STOP AND BUST A SHOT
BUT THE VOICES IN MY HEAD SCREAMING D YOU MUSTN’T STOP
SOME PEOPLE TRUST IN GOD BUT ME I TRUST IN WHAT I GOT
MUSIC’S ALL THAT KEEPS ME GOING THAT’S WHY I WRITE A LOT
AND IF I GOT WRITERS BLOCK THEN I DIE INSIDE THE BLOCK FOR WHAT

“THE CRY FOR HELP”

WHAT DO I DO?
ARE YOU LONELY TOO?
TELL ME WHAT I DO
IF YOU ONLY KNEW

THE FINAL BLEEDING - (RUKAS)

MY HEART IS SHRIVELLED AND BLACK INSIDE ME
THE WORD GOODBYE I JUST SCRIBBLED IN THAT DIARY
UNDER THE BED I LEAVE IT WILL SOMEONE GET TO READ IT
AND IF THEY DO I WONDER IF THEY’D BELIEVE IT
BARING MY HEART WROTE IT THERE IN THE DARK
STARING AT MY WRISTS WANNA TEAR’EM APART
TAKE A TRIP TO NOWHERE AND DEPART
WINDOWS UP EXHAUST FUMES BREATHE! NO AIR IN THE CAR
LEAVE MY FAMILY WITH QUESTIONS
DID WE LOVE HIM ENOUGH AND WHY’D HE TAKE THOSE ANTI DEPRESSANTS
SOMETHING IN THE AIR, CAN IT BE THE PRESENCE
OF HOPE? YEAH…NAH THERE’S NO ONE THERE
SINCE FIVE JUST FELT LIKE THIS LIFE WAS HELL
NOTHING NICE TO TELL SINCE I WAS TWELVE
TRYNA FIGHT THIS SPELL, I REACH INSIDE MYSELF
I DON’T LIKE MYSELF, MY SOUL CRIES FOR HELP
I FUCK UP EVERYTHING I TOUCH, FED UP IN MY GUT
OUT A LUCK AND NEVER BEEN IN LOVE
BORN OUTCAST WORN OUT MY MASK
TIME TO FACE THE DAWN NOW I ASK

THE CRY FOR HELP

WHAT DO I DO?
ARE YOU LONELY TOO?
TELL ME WHAT I DO
IF YOU ONLY KNEW

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from SO UNDERRATED - RUKAS & DEKAY - (2013), released November 5, 2013

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"the offering of a rose basket I bear the widows cried

The coffin was a closed casket affair the lid closed tight

In every starving land there's a fat King

And every laughing man shares a sad grin"
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